a mama who gave birth around the same time that i did just lost her husband in a skydiving accident yesterday. my heart is so very heavy, thinking about her and her son. my thoughts go out to her family.
I try very hard to not think about anything happening to Conan, or The Governor for that matter. my life has been indelibly etched with their presences that the prospect of losing either one of them has become unimaginable for me. but at the same time, i worry about it all the time--it's always at the back of my mind, because you just never know what's going to happen. You just don't. I worry when Conan goes to the track, he even had his break fluid boil at one session. Not a huge deal and he was able to control the car, but still a little worrisome.
It's not something that you think about, but at the same time, perhaps it serves as a reminder that you can never take your friends and family for granted. When I was 19, I had to help my sister swim back to a boat because she froze up one time while we were snorkeling off the coast of the Cayman Islands and she just couldn't compose herself enough to swim back. So I floated with her and helped talk her through it, and then we were fine. But while we were floating there in the cobalt blue water, I thought, "I don't want to lose my sister." And from that point on, my family became very close. I think because of this, I am fundamentally OK with the fact that my parents are getting up there in age--I will be very sad when that happens, but I think that I would be happy because I was pretty lucky to have them.
Posted by equilibrium-girl at November 18, 2004 11:39 AM