yesterday, i was on the street where someone from my past once lived. only i didn't know exactly what house was his. you see, in our conversations he had mentioned the street name and his neighborhood and we had talked about the area. but for certain reasons, i never went there. in any event, i got the closure that i had wanted, with no thanks to the person in question and the entire episode has been neatly swept under the rug. however, yesterday i was required to go to that particular area and after circling for parking, i gave up and parked in an overpriced garage at the foot of his street.
i walked up the hill, over the bridge, on the cobblestone streets to my destination. i'd remembered our conversations about that street. i don't think he knew how lucky he was to get to live there, it's an amazing street right in the heart of a neat but overpriced area. there is a historical canal with a pathway that you can walk along. so many beautiful things to see. if i were single, i'd live there.
i thought about him for the first time in a very, very long time, and his memory was vivid. and i felt no longing. i remembered him with affection and i smiled at the thought of his smile, but as i walked along, i did not feel compromised. i knew yesterday that i made the right choice.
i'm not sure if it's true when they say "time heals all wounds," but sometimes it helps. sometimes all you need to do is sit and wait until the relationship truly becomes "the past."
Posted by equilibrium-girl at December 2, 2004 09:45 AM