I am feeling a tad guilty about having withheld posting about supermaggie's sample sale until I made my selections. I'm the proud owner of the Vertical Stripe Scarf in Beach and the Skinny in Stripes. The former is for fun, and the latter is...for fun too (but it also matches my red spring coat). Yess!
The internet is a very strange thing. You can get drawn into all sort of drama online that consumes your mental and emotional energy even when you're not posting on your blog or on a message board. I exchanged some brief heated words with one of the other moderators that I am very close to on a certain message board (not D_igs, since I'm not a Housesitter, natch), and just finally stepped away from visiting there on Thursday. Initially, I wanted to see how and why I'd contributed to the mess. However, since I've not been back for the past few days, I've had all of this emotional and mental energy that I can devote to other things. Such as work. And The Governor and Conan. And laundry (boy do we need it). I figure I'll come back when I am good and ready. I'm not sure when that will be, but since I operate by instinct, I figure those "spidey senses" will kick in whenever that time comes.
I came to the realization that it is time to close down dear-bean, save everything to disc and print it out, and give it to Q. We now talk about all of the things I want to tell him, and I figure I'll use this blog to document our lives together. My emotions and sense of balance hinge partially on my interactions with him, so it makes sense. That doesn't mean I don't experience a little pang of guilt or loss, but in a way, it's time to move on.
Posted by equilibrium-girl at March 6, 2005 07:04 PM