I've been walking around the past couple of days feeling concave. When there is something that resonates in your heart and makes you happy, you become hyperfocused, often to the point of distraction. But then, you know that reality makes things either impossible or not without consequences. That's when your defense mechanisms kick in, and start the process of removing that thing in bits and pieces. For a while, you start to miss that little resonance, and the rest of you dances around it and you feel odd and slightly out of place. Sure, over time you just get used to it, and that little space fills back up again. But before that, you feel like there's this little thing missing, making you feel a little off balance, at least for a little while until your wordl re-corrects itself. I should be used to it by now, but it always gets me, every time.
Posted by equilibrium-girl at August 19, 2005 10:23 PM