Excuse the lack of entries-between Katrina, happenings in Conan's side of the family, and finally having a little down time I've been on the introspective side these days. That's supposed to lead to journal ponderings on life subjects, a la life's true meaning and whatnot, right?
The big problem is that there's so much swirling around in this head of mine that I can't get it untangled enough to even start a consistent enough train of thought to even compel me to write it down. It's sort of like when you don't sort out your jewelry and your necklaces become this tangled mass of gold and silver chain studded with daisy charms and beads. You spy the perfect necklace twisted in with the rest, and while you start trying to pick it out with a toothpick inserted into the mess, you end up getting frustrated with the whole thing and pick out that standard pair of neutral go-with-everything earrings instead. Then, you just shrug your shoulders, look in the mirror and think "it'll go," and head out the door.
It's been like that, except I haven't felt entirely that great about my looks. I shouldn't have tried on that end-of-summer-sale bikini last night. I didn't look atrocious in it, but my body image issues took over in that sparse dressing room. Most days, I'm happy with my body, its post partum stretchmarks and all. Honestly, I could pull off a bikini-but when I look at myself in the mirror, the "I could stand to be a little more toned in certain areas," litany starts running. Don't love it, but it's been enough to start me being better at exercising lately.
Posted by equilibrium-girl at September 2, 2005 08:49 AM