i am alive, but barely holding on to my sanity. we're contemplating a very big transition, and it will involve changes in every aspect of our lives. it's a nerve wracking time, but i think it's one that will make all of us in the equilibrium household better.
it's time consuming, however, and it has involved quite a lot of traveling in the past couple of weeks. and white lies that in the end will not have much consequence, but still i feel pangs of guilt every time i tell one.
will post more when more becomes evident.
they say that most people in the D.C. area are "transients" in the sense that they are from somewhere else, and were lured into living in the shadow of the National Monument by education, political ideals, or something similar.
but what happens to "transients" once they put down roots and find a community?
Conan and i have been dancing around the prospect of a move, due to a potential job opportunity elsewhere to a place that couldn't be more different than D.C. than Gummi Bears are to Reese's Pieces. on the one hand, you have a fairly diverse population and are only a half-hour's drive to white water rafting, wine tasting, a decent nightlife, and every form of martial arts training imaginable. it's not the Big Apple by any means, but there is enough, to be sure. and it has made me happy to have all of those things nearby. however, the cost of living has steadily increased, and so has the stress and long hours.
on the other hand, you have a nice peaceful bedroom community. where the cost of living is fairly low. where the population of Asians totals in the low hundreds.
however, in the latter place there is a job that would be less stressful in the sense that i would not take anything home with me. i would learn so very, very much. and i would be in a great position to do quite a few things.
but lately, it hasn't been about the job anymore. it has been about what's right for myself and for my family. it has become a necessity in our lives to find something less stressful. we can't live like this for very long, and i feel often that i am at the end of my rope. however, there are very few jobs available for someone in my position that would allow me to reduce my commute by 50%. 50%, that's all i need, folks. 50% and a good boss.